In the spirit of the season —- I hope things go better for you as time goes on. Many of us were isolated or lonely when we were younger, and the last couple years haven’t been easy for anyone. It sounds like you’re doing lots of things right — working a job, going to the gym, and trying to date — these are good and worthwhile things! The process of growing up and obtaining social acceptance can be a long haul and you may wish to look into therapy for some specifically tailored advice and a sympathetic ear.